In 11 days, I will be married
to my husband for 5 years and we will be together a total of 6 years.
If you have been married or are married, you will understand me when
I say, marriage isn't easy and takes a lot of work and lot of
My eldest daughter is
embarking on her first actual big breakup and I feel for her but she
is young and she will spring back even though it may not feel like
Love is work, you got to put
up with another person's shit including all their flaws and stupid
mistakes. But if you are still there at the end of the day, you know
you have something magical deep down inside of yourself and you
realize that maybe this thing called life isn't so bad after all.
Love is spirit and flow, it
ebbs and wanes just like the moon mother's magic. It's heartbreaking
and heart filling. You feel it from the tips of your toes to the top
of your head. It makes you jubilant, it makes you sad, it makes you
mad, but I wouldn't turn my back on it for the world.
For my close friends and
family who know my hubby and I, they know that we had our own hiccups
and we still do but in the end it all remains the same. He is meant
to be with me and I am meant to be with him.
We just laid in bed the other
night in each other's arms and I remember laying there with his head
on my chest and his arms around me and I had never before felt such
peace and oneness with the universe and all the shit we have been
through just doesn't seem to matter much anymore. It's life and it
happens whether we want it to or not.
I guess what I'm trying to
say is don't sweat the negatives because if you really think about
it, the positives definitely outweigh them. So each day, I try to
make it a point to say I love you to my man and give him a kiss even
when I"m pissed as hell at him because you never know when they
won't be here anymore.
Life is too short to measure
the negatives with the positives. Just let it flow and embrace it
with all its chaos. Because within chaos, there is balance.