Playing with the Faeries

Playing with the Faeries

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

11/24/10 Ramblings of a Spiritual Seeker

11/24/10 Ramblings of a Spiritual Seeker
Tonight's inspiration is just random things. 
I was thinking about Mother Earth tonight and here is my hypotheses. I think we are in continuous cycles here. We are starting all over again. This is why there is the technology is more advanced in the years past. We are in the industrial age again and Mother Earth is going through her cycle again. I think we as a species are arrogant to assume there were not others here before that invented the technology that we haven't even be able to recreate again. The lucky few who do realize this are blessed. I believe in reincarnation and that we have lived many lifetimes and are continuously reborn into something or someone else and there are a few who actually know that they were here before. It explains a lot of things. 
I also want to reflect on thankfulness. I'm thankful because I'm here alive another day. I'm thankful for my family and my friends who are really extended family. I'm thankful I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, tv & internet, and my kids are healthy if not always happy. There are a lot of people out there that do not have this. Small blessings are counted every day. Whether it be a bill that will wait or a bit of news that brightens our day. It is all measured and counted and I thank the universe/divine for it every night in my introspective time. My introspective time is usually the time just before bed where I lay there and list all the things I'm thankful for and things that I pray for. Whether it be a bit of luck or a message of goodwill. This is really what prayer is to me. And I usually see results. You have the power within to make your destiny. You just need to find it.
I think that is all that flows from my head right now. Feel free to post what you are thankful for. Your thoughts on prayer and Mother Earth herself.
Until next time, Peace be with you

Sunday, November 21, 2010

11/21/10 SmOke Trail Spellwork



If I ever needed validation for my spell-work I found it tonight. I tried my hand at financial gain spell, good luck spell, and employment spell. As the incense and candle burned......the wisps of smoke embraced me and went right around me. Every time, I moved my hands to encourage the smoke to come to me, it did and the smell filled my nostrils and I feel at peace and not alone in this life. As I write it still dances around me,, faces appear in the smoke as well as a little path and I could see smoke people dancing up the path. Laughter bubbled up inside of me and I was filled with awe. What an amazing experience after my first spell-work.
I'm so excited and hopeful now....:) My cat is looking at the smoke people too.:)

Here is the poem that came across my head when I was sitting in the smoke.:)

Wisps of smoke dance around me
Faces appear as they get close
Such comforts I feel as it touches me.
The smell of tranquility comes over me.
I am not alone in this mad world.
Pathways form in the trails
Smiles form and it flows
beside me in a fanciful melody.
Laughter bubbles inside of me.
Awe fills me.
Peace embraces me.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Nostalgia & Music 11/11/10

Nostalgia and Music


Nostalgia and Music are tonight’s inspirations. Per request of my sis, Opie who wanted to listen to some of my videos, I posted them again. This in turn lead me down the music memory lane and I re-listened to all my videos and wav files I did.
In the process, I found the old one of me and my sis Chell when we were 15 and recording into a cassette recorder.
Music has always been a part of my soul. I sang daily a few years ago and need to get back into it. I miss it. Sang karaoke a few weeks ago and really made me want to get back into it again. One of my new friends is in Williams County Idol and she is stressing about her performance tomorrow night. I told her just breathe and let the music flow from your soul. That is a good rule of thumb for everyone. Feel free to take a listen to my videos and please let me know what you think.
So ends tonight’s post,Earth

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Small Blessings 11/7/10


I took down last nights blog due to some unacceptable comments that people were saying. But I have a good one to write down today.
After last night's stress, I got a wonderful email today. We have been struggling with bills and everything since Ryan has been out of work so buying clothes for the kids is just not in our budget. A few weeks ago, I posted about clothes for Tier and a wonderful lady responsed and she gave me 2 bags full of almost new clothes and a warm winter jacket. So I decided to try my luck with Abby's clothes and got two dead ends then last night I got a wonderful email from a benefactor I'm not going to name who offered us some money from his fund from a local church which helps children to buy her some new and nice clothes. At first, I was skeptical then I got a confirming email about it. So now we can buy Abby some clothes. Me and one of my best friends are going to shop and get some deals. Bless the divine universe for sending this blessing my way and bless that lovely man who found it in his heart to help my child in need.
Not only did that happen but Abby and i have been having a good day today and she decided to ride with Ryan to drop Cassie off. Small baby steps work. So I feel very blessed and thankful for these small blessings. It brings my faith back in myself and humanity in general. There are good people out there and sometimes small blessings are really little bits of luck in disguise.
I'm going to thank this gentleman in my prayers tonight.
that's all....
Peace and balance everyone.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Samhain Ritual 2010

y Personal Samhain Ritual
Done 10/31/10
Placement and Directions
Invitation Invocation
MOON PHASE:Waning Crescent
Inner Cleansing, justice and balance, reincarnation
Candles placed in the corners as you see above
Physical Attributes

I call upon the guardians of earth to join and protect my circle.
I call upon earth in the north
I call upon air in the east
I call upon fire in the south
I call upon water in the west
Counterclockwise to do this

Clockwise to do ritual
I ask for strength to see the truth (earth)
I ask for change to put me in direction of my true spiritual path (water)
I ask for power to see the truth before me (fire)
I ask for freedom from my inhibitions and doubts to move me forward on my path(air)
Invocation/Invitation of my departed and my faery guides
I call upon my fae family to dance with me in the calling of my departed loved one.
I ask for the following people to join me in my circle in memory and love.
Grandpa Sheffer
Grandma Sheffer
Uncle Dave
Grandpa Baldwin
As you join me in my circle, I want to let you know I love and miss you will all my heart. You will always been in my heart and memories.
I also ask that you give me protection and guidance in my path before me.
Dancing with fae and loved ones in the circle, perhaps singing or chanting in their memory.
As the night moves forward, I want to thank everyone for joining me in my circle.
As my loved ones depart and I feel your energy leaving the circle.
I dance and sing with my fae family.
Close my circle and pray.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

10/19/10 Power of Positive Thoughts

Today's inspiration is my current life situation.
Do you ever get to the point in your life when you want to throw up your hands and scream I'm done, I've had it? That was my point yesterday. I had a lot of shit happen in one day and I was at the end of my rope.
I'm usually a very positive person but this time around, Mrs positive wasn't in the house. Not sure if she is going to be there very strong but I'm trying.
Do you ever think you have guardian who brings you out of your funk? Well I think I had that happen to me today.
Last night, I prayed for some sort of sign that things would get better so I can keep thinking positive. This morning on my way to work, this interesting conversation happened. I just remember driving to work and feeling that someone was in the car with me talking to me through me. I know everyone who is reading this probably thinks I'm cuckoo for coco puffs. But I think it really happened. My voice was different and it was like someone was talking through me to me. Very strange and surreal all at the same time. When the car drive started, I was feeling like shit. My head was killing me and my chest was tight. But in the 10 minutes of the drive, my headache and my chest tightness eased up. I don't remember the whole conversation. Just these words. Positive thought brings positive flow. So in light of that conversation I'm going to try to be positive. It's going to be very hard but I have my health to worry about. I don't need to take the whole world on my shoulders. Just one piece at a time.
And I also must thank my awesome hubby for making me laugh when all I wanted to do was cry. He always knows when something is wrong even if I don't say anything. One of the
Please share your stories on how you keep positive. Hopefully,it will help me learns some new techniques.
Until next time,

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

My Journey Book Excerpt

My path is my own with many twist and turns. Layers of beliefs put together in a hodgepodge . I started as a Wicca practitioner. Spell-work came easy to me but couldn't agree with the god/goddess persona. I've always did divination with tarot decks. My first deck was Hanson Roberts. Moon and earth energy has always surrounded me. Flash forward a few years and my path led me to spirit guides. Goddess persona popped in here for a bit as I was drawn to Frey. Freya and the Norse mythology has always fascinated me. I've always prophetic dreams since I was young. Animals are drawn to me especially cats, feral and tame. This twist is very predominate in my belief system today. I've just incorporated into other things. Native American shamanism became something of interest to me. But again, some of their rituals didn't fit me. Though shamanism is much of what I believe ..a lot with soul healing and astral projection. There comes another twist, spell-work comes into play again. We shall see where it goes.

Now a new experience shows itself to me, through my oldest daughter and her boyfriend. Her boyfriend is ill informed and misguided when it comes to the pagan way of life. My next task is to find out whether it is real or just a fantasy for him. He's into the dark/shadow side of things but I think most of that is romanticized by today’s books and movies. My goal is to share knowledge with him so he can become informed and is guided right. Through this, I've talking to a few of my mentors. A natural witch and a Wicca couple as well as my own spiritual husband. I feel it's another twist in my path.

Today my belief system encompasses ideals from the following pathways:





Natural Witch

Animal Work



Soul Healing

Moon cycles

Astral Projection


Let me break down the parts of these that I am drawn to.

Norse-being Scandinavia and Finnish in my origins, their stories and music resonate deep within me. Shamanism is a part of this. In a shaman's point of view everything has a soul. Again, this flows with my belief in everything has a soul.

Celtic Shamanism-power animal totems and the 3 levels of the world. This is another thing that draws me

Druidism-the Sabbats

Natural Witch-pretty much defines me. Healing. Working with animals. Divination ability, intuition, spell-work, Sabbats

While I was discussing spiritual things with one of my mentors, we have put me in the lump of natural witch. That has a lot of the characteristics with what I believe in and throw in a few extras:)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Pagan Scriptures

by Charles Baize & Nolan Reichle

Chapter One

1. In the beginning was the Light and all things that were, are,and shall be were in the Light. The Light is The Creators, our God and Goddess.

2. And the Light said, Let there be life, and the reverberating vibrations of Their voices caused the creation of the universes.

3. And the worlds were created and in them were the elements of life; fire, water, air and earth. And the evolution of life began. This was the beginning of ages and cycles of ages.

4. And within the Light were every soul of every creature great and small, and these souls are the Children of the Light.

5. And the Light said, We shall send Our Children out and they shall live, love, learn, and experience as they begin their journey.

6. They shall seek to become Perfect, just as We are Perfect.

7. The Light said, When they have become Perfect, they shall return unto Us and We shall receive them in unto Us.

8. And they shall be likened unto Us, and then if they desire, they shall go no more out.

9. And in the attainment of this Divine Perfection, We shall give to Our Children those things that they need to fulfill the journey.

10. There should not be put upon them more than they can endure.

11. Should they not attain this Perfection in one life, We shall give them another. But between these lives, they shall rest and learn…

12. Study their mistakes and the lessons from the previous lives.

13. Should they require ten lives, We shall give it to them for the attainment of Perfection.

14. Should they require seventy lives, We shall give it to them.

15. Should they require one hundred and twenty-five lives, We shall give it.

16. It matters not to Us how many lives that We should give to them as long as they do return to Us.

17. For We send Our Children out and We shall not lose one of them. For they are Our Children.

18. Love from love, Light from Light, We love them and not one shall be lost.

Chapter Two

1. In the beginning there was the Light and all things that have been, are, and shall be were in the Light.

2. Every soul that exists now existed then and the Light wished that each and every soul would go out, become perfect, live, love, and experience and then return of their own free will to Them.

3. And the Light said, We shall send them out, who shall be the first?

4. And I, the Lady Danu, an humble child, one of the First Born, stepped before Them and said, Allow me. If I fail, it will be nothing as long as You reach out and take me by the hand to bring me back into Yourselves, Great Mother and Father.

5. Then They said, Go, and I went into the void and it was cold and I knew from the beginning that my voyage and everything I knew, every word and deed, would bring me again back to the Light.

6. That I should do nothing that would make me fail this task.

Chapter Three

1. Therefore, I left the Light and felt the cold, the loneliness. And the lights of the world could not begin to shine as brightly and joyfully as the Light of Lights.

2. I had only known the comforts of the Father and the Mother, the Light, being in Their presence, knowing Their love and Their peace.

3. Therefore, I went down and took a body and through these incarnations I came to feel good and bad, to know suffering and pain, to feel the bite and sting of the serpent and scorpion.

4. I came to know sickness and disease, feel the pangs of hunger and the exhaustion of labor. I experienced all manner of life in these incarnations.

5. I came to understand time and age and the body’s vulnerability to them. And in this way, lived a lifetime of years, and my spiritual and physical evolution began.

6. And my Father and Mother, the Light, looked down upon me and seeing my pain and suffering said, This is enough.

7. We will not allow Our Children to remain in this body and suffer beyond their strength.

8. Then They said to me, Come, We will make for you a realm where you will find peace and comfort and where you may study and come to understand the experiences of this life and We will place this realm between Ourselves and these worlds.

9. We shall not let Our Children suffer beyond their means in one life, nor evolve through several lives without rest. Therefore shall they live, learn, and experience for a time and then seek the comfort of this realm before continuing the attainment of Perfection.

10. Therefore shall the souls leave their bodies to seek rest and comfort and to seek understanding that they may attain a higher perfection in their next life.

11. Therefore, I, the Lady Danu, left the body and entered the realm of comfort that the Light had created for me.

12. This was the beginning for us all.

13. Soon thereafter my second journey began, not as my first alone, but with a second spark who would come to be my consort who has been known as Pan, ….Bel.., ..Belize…..

14. And together we would change as the evolution of life continued.

Chapter Four

1. The Mother and Father of all Life said, Our Children shall experience all manner of living and learning.

2. There will be nothing that they shall not experience.

3. For it is only in experiencing all these lives in every manner thereof that they shall grow and attain spiritual Perfection.

4. We are the Light, yet it is only through Our Children that We see Our own Light.

5. What they experience, We experience, what they suffer, We suffer.

6. They take Us with them and they are the sparks of Our essence and Our power.

7. In the world they should not hide this Light that the Light shall shine through them to the others, as a constant reminder of their origin.

8. They shall know that they are the Children of the Light, and the sons and daughters of the Gods and Goddesses.

9. The first one hundred sparks to leave us shall be called the First Born, these shall be Gods and Goddesses to those that follow.

Chapter Five

1. Within the Light there are masculine aspects and feminine aspects.

2. The Light is the greatest of the deities, the Creator, The All One.

3. Yet It is Two, even so, It is One.

4. This is the First, This is the Creator.

5. The Absolute Deity in both aspects.

6. This is the Great Mother and Great Father of All Life.

7. And from the Light came the First Born and these First Born Sparks went out from the Light, life forms developed and the evolution of life slowed after a time within cycles of ages.

8. Thereafter, They became Perfect and returned unto the Light.

9. They, the First Born, we know as Gods and Goddesses, The Lords and Ladies of the Light.

10. They are known to us by many names, including: Adonis; Aida-Wedo; Ammut; Amun; Aphrodite; Apollo; Artemis; Astarte; Bacchus; Barron Samedhi; Bast; Brigantia; Buddha; Cernunnos; Cerridwin; Chiron; Coventina; Damballah;

11. Danu; Diana; Dionysus; Durga; Enlil; Erzulie; Freya; Gwydion; Gwynn Ap Nudd; Hera; Hermes; Horus; Isis; Jesus; Junos; Kali-Ma; Krishna; Maha-Lakshmi; Marduk; Min; Morrigu; Mut; Nekhbet; Nergal; Odin; Osiris; Pan; Papa-Legba; Priapus; Ra; Sekhmet; Shiva; Tammuz; Thoth; Thor; Venus; Vishnu; Woden; Zeus; The Crone, and many others.

12. These Lords and Ladies, Gods and Goddesses all, shall remain until the end of this Cycle of Light.

13. When the last of the children of these ages return unto the Light…

14. Then shall the Lords and Ladies, the Gods and Goddesses, of this Cycle of Light also return for their rest and their reward.

15. It is their decision to remain in the Light of Lights or to return in the new cycle as Gods and Goddesses for that new age.

16. And all sparks left the Light and the Light became the sum total of the individual sparks.

17. Therefore, the sparks are the Light; the Light being within each individual spark. And only when all sparks attain Perfection shall the Light be made whole again.

18. For we are the Light, Gods and Goddesses, the Creators. And the Light shall not be whole until each spark returns to Perfection, which is their origin.

Chapter Six

1. Although all souls have issued from the Light, each has its own separate identity.

2. Each an individual with its own paths.

3. Therefore, let there be no condemnation from one soul to the other that they judge one another in their paths in their chosen identities.

4. For each soul must learn a lesson and experience new things.

5. What is right for one soul may not necessarily be right for another at the present time.

6. Therefore, let all souls feel free to experience and live as is needed in their attainment to Divine Perfection.

7. Each individual must follow the path that is best for them lest experiences be lost and times be wasted by following after the attained experiences others have set before them.

Chapter Seven

1. During these lives, Our Children may honor Us.

2. They shall burn incense and speak words of their hearts and We shall hear Our Children.

3. We shall watch them and know they are attaining the Perfection that they require to return unto Us.

4. They shall in no means destroy blood life to burn as sacrifices unto Us.

5. They shall take no blood life to give to Us in any manner.

6. No, there shall be no blood sacrifices, but only the sacrifice of herb and incense.

7. The sacrifice that We enjoy most is one of seeing karmic harmony and life being lived well, not the taking of life, nor the letting of blood.

8. Therefore, you shall burn no sacrifice of blood nor creature unto Us, nor offer sacrifice of blood or life.

9. For Our sacrifice is that We must send Our children away from Us that they may attain Perfection. 10. As Our will, so be it.

Chapter Eight

1. Our Children are love and Light and they know what they need in the attainment of Perfection, for they carry with them Our essence and Our knowledge of what must be attained.

2. They have free choice and free will in the experiences and the attainment of this Perfection.

3. And the whole of the law is this,

4. An ye harm none, do what ye will.

5. All of the laws are summed up in this.

6. Again We say, An ye harm none, do what ye will.

7. For this is the path of love and Light, that you harm none.

8. We are love and Light.

9. Love is the law and love is the bond.

10. And when you have needs, speak unto the Gods and Goddesses and ask what you will.

11. Should the requests not hinder your karma or the karma of others, nor change it in any way,

12. And if you have no doubt and send forth your Light and your vibrations, and your receptive influences…

13. Directing them to do your will, they shall help you to achieve your goal…

14. If they do not go against your karmic wheel, nor cause a falling away of the goals and tasks set by you prior to your incarnation into this life.

15. And We send Our Children out not empty, but they carry with them Our Light and Our love and all this power is given to them that they may go out and experience, live, love, and learn.

16. And these powers are theirs to use if they will upon each path.

17. And Our Children, they know Our way and they should seek to travel those paths which will bring them to Perfection.

18. Knowing that they shall return unto Us.

Chapter Nine

1. There are some souls who upon their journeys tend to forget the serenity and love, the comfort and fulfillment and perfection they had in the Light.

2. And that to the Light they should return for Perfect peace, love, and harmony throughout eternity.

3. These distressed souls We at times call malicious ones.

4. For some of them do tend to take that path.

5. In the attainment of Perfection, let us not forget from whence we came.

6. Let us not forget that for which we strive.

7. Let there be no taking of life unnecessarily.

8. Let there be no wickedness that your thought, word, or deed should harm another.

9. For every soul is precious to Us and We would have none of Our Children come to harm by the hands of another of Our Children.

10. Therefore, do not move in wickedness to perform the things that would cause harm or injury to another of Our Children.

11. But instead, move upon your paths in love.

12. For in this path is Perfect Light, in this path you will attain joy and Perfection.

13. Therefore, seek to do good among the Children of the Light, your brothers and sisters, and should you see them at the side in pain and suffering…

14. Receive them into your heart, lift them up and in this way, karma shall be satisfied.

Chapter Ten

1. And the Child of the Light you have helped along the way may repay this karma, lifting you up when you are down in pain and suffering.

2. The karmic wheel of life is forever turning, ever just in its way.

3. Therefore, do not allow yourself to worry and to wonder over the things of this life that you may or may not have.

4. For in past lives, you may have had them.

5. Or in future lives you may attain them.

6. Find peace in what you have or have not yet attained. For in this, you may achieve a goal you set for yourself to reach prior to this incarnation.

7. And do not worry yourself of the body that you now live in. For you yourself have chosen every aspect of this life, even to the body you now use, for the fulfillment of your personal karma, and many times, for the payment of a karmic debt.

8. Therefore find peace in all these things and joy in the knowledge that your karma is being fulfilled and you are rising to higher levels of Perfection.

9. There is no true happiness, no fulfillment and completion of being until one has walked into the Light, attaining Divine Perfection. Being One with the Light is the only true source of joy and fulfillment.

10. These words are true and old and have been written by the Light of Lights.

11. They have existed since the beginning of time.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

9/22/10 Mabon Ritual


Tonight's entry is inspired by today's celebration of Mabon-Autumnal Equinox.

As I feel this particular Sabbat is cleansing for me and truth seeking, I decided for my ritual to cleanse my tarot decks followed with an outside ritual in the moonlight.

My tarot decks have powerful strength to me and I hope to work better with them in the future so since that is a big part of me, I wanted to cleanse them and start fresh.

After cleansing my deck, I did reading off all three of my decks and my only statement was SHOW ME MY TRUTH. The cards never disappointing did.

The first card I pulled was from my Soul Card deck that one of my spirit sisters gave me as a gift. The card that was pulled was what I refer to as Mother Nature card . It's a picture of a lady in the earth with roots growing from her hands to a tree. My message in this is:

Keep true to myself

Follow the earth path

The second reading I did was with my Divine Tarot deck

I pulled a 3 card spread which I will refer to as Past, Present and Future as this is what felt right to me.


Ace of Swords


Knight of Swords



My message,

Obstacles in my path

mental clutter or just physical or mental blocks

Sharp mind needed, act forcefully on my beliefs, fierce willed, and clever.

Idealistic was also in there, I think that is what I am

Independent mind who wants things on her own terms. Can make the deepest wishes come true or destroy them if crossed. Your dreams or nightmares fulfilled whichever way the mind decides to turn to.

Last but not least, my reading with Faerie Oracle deck. The one that speaks always true to me.

Fee Lion

the Laume

Singer of Chalice

The Master Maker

My message:

Duties unfulfilled-get rid of mental clutter

Give to others freely and generously to get rid of blockage

Random acts of kindness shared with others.

Healing, hope, patience, be open if you don't know how to be open, ask.

Teaching ones craft to others. Make sure to do your very best work. Use the knowledge you are given to do this.

So do you see a common theme here? So after I did this, I decided to go outside and feel the earth and bathe in the moonlight. I just went outside in my underwear and shirt, no sky-clad as I live in a small town. I went outside sat on my blanket, as I sat bathing in the moonlight, I prayed to the Mother for cleansing and truth. I also prayed to help my family, immediate and extended. After that, I put my palms on the ground and feel the Mother's energy fill me and the moonlight embrace me. Then I stood in the dew-filled grass barefoot and gave thanks to all the directions and then thanked the mother for giving me the strength to move forward on my path. In this time, I just chanted whatever came out of my mouth. It was just vocally no words.

After cleansing tears, I came in the house and kissed my hubby and petted all my fur-kids. As I listen to pagan chants, I write this. I hope this helps someone in a little way.

So moving onto my path now.....until the next Sabbat, the most powerful one.

Please read and write your thoughts down about this entry.

As always, thanks for reading

Until next time......

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Inspiration 9/11/10



Inspiration is but a butterfly in my dreams right now..

but she flies ever so closely to me as visually and musically things are shown to me. She leads me ever so softly. I feel her touch on my hand. Just a memory now but walking closer still to me.

Secret Garden is the absolutely soul resonate to me right now..I'm doing a Secret garden mix now and that butterfly is in my stomach right now. Tears in my eyes...clarity is nearer as each day passes.

What do we all seek...clarity in everyday life and then you have the few who know clarity means so much more. My path with it's twists and turns becomes straighter as each day passes. New things are shown to me and giving me wings to fly.

Spiritual by nature and soul, that's me. I learn more about myself each day. I wonder if this is what ascendancy means. I feel urgency in these teachings.

We are moving into a new direction..a rebirth of sorts and a death of another. A way of life is changing and moving us closer to clarity.

Magic is all around us..but many have closed their eyes to it. The old ways come back to the few that are open to them. Peace or balance whatever you call it.

Music flows softly in my mind..visual pictures come to me slowly. The answers are closer to grasp. My mind is opening and expanding. Taking me back to who I used to be in another lifetime.

I hope that my friends make this journey with me. Open your minds and hearts see who and what you are supposed to be.

Every mind can be open...just gotta to believe in something tangible even if it is intangible right now.

I've met many friends along the way who share my passion...are they placed there by the universe? Are we drawn to one another towards some new goal? Many questions, not enough answers. Cryptic messages are shown and you need to open your eyes to see the truth of things.

My fingers type on this page but is it really me? Sometimes I wonder. Maybe it is me just another aspect of me. The teacher teaching the student or vice versa.

I feel such a creative energy within me right now. A floodgate being opened. The images and words flow freely in no discernible pattern. Glimpses of truth pour from my keyboard. I feel such a need to write everything down. The pen is full of ink and needs to be used. Is this how every writer feels?? Such an urgency. If you can't write fast enough will it be lost?

Beauty is such a fickle thing. One's version of beauty is different from another. Physical for others. What one finds as ugliness, I see as beauty. I know i'm not alone in seeing this. The broken souls find their way to me. Am I supposed to heal them? It's hard to heal when you don't know what you are doing.

But I digress. My fingers write and I bleed my soul onto this white page. I see this as an opportunity. Glass half full made full. What another sees as emptiness, I see whole. The knowledge I write makes sense to the people who know me. What you see as nonsense really makes sense if you open yourself up to it.

Ramblings and free flow is how I write best. A lot of times, I don't even know what I write until I read it much later. A kind of auto writing. I open my mind as the music plays and purging of my soul commences.

I'm dancing inside to the music as it flows into my ears. Freeing my soul at last.

Tell me what inspires you. I really want to know. Don't be afraid to write.

I hope to show my new and old friends, a glimpse into my soul. If it scares you, I'm sorry. If you want to join me on this journey, please email me or chat with me in any of the social mediums. I want people who share my passion for the spiritual truth that all elude us. Perhaps you will learn something new. Something that frees your soul. That is my goal to free people's souls and connect them with their minds.

Until next time,


9/11/10 Epiphany


Two blogs in one should all feel special.

Inspiration is grasping me in her arms and hugging me tonight.

I've been listening to Celtic/Faerie Music tonight and it inspired me to write my earlier poem.

Do you ever have the feeling that you have knowledge right in your grasp and in blinding light you are thrust into an epiphany.

As many of you know, I've been struggling with my spiritual path for many years now...going one way and not finding my niche. Then suddenly things click and you feel as if you are back on your path. That's me the past few months. First with the Norse connotations and they resonate within me. Now being led in the Celtic way...another piece in the jigsaw of my life. I'm going back to my roots in more ways than one. Some of my friends thoughts on this basically are...the answers you seek will be shown to you in time and they are in glimpses.. dreams, videos, pictures...anything can flick my switch and that is what I need. I'm tired of being stagnant and flaying along on my path. I want enlightenment and knowledge. I don’t want anymore cryptic messages. Show me solid pics and the universe has been throwing me slivers the last few months..urgency fills me at times. The ways of universe are preparing me for an ending and and a new beginning.

I know to some of you these scribblings will make no sense but the people who have walked with me on this path will find these make a weird kind of sense.

The “Old” ways are popping up more and more with things that I'm drawn to.

I'm not talking blood sacrifices and stuff. I'm talking about the natural witch path. Symbols and thoughts become clearer to me the closer I get to the right path. And I'm exhilarated and a little nervous for what the universe has in store for me.

So dance with me this crazy dance, walk with me this new walk...

learn from me as I learn from you.

Peace and balance,


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

8/25/10 Friendship Inspirations


Inspired by a couple of quotes...

The quotes

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive. ~Anäis Nin

What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies. ~Aristotle

I've written about friendship before and I'm sure I will again. Just as I'm sure you will get tired of me talking about it. But my friends are my family so they mean a lot to me.

The first quote is very true. I believe there are many worlds to be found in each one of my friendships. Life would be a dull and boring place if you didn't have friends.

The second quote really resonates with me as I've had that experience many times. I have many friends and have many acquaintances. The friends I know find me in some of the strangest ways but I always know a kindred soul. Something about their eyes. They say eyes are windows to the soul and that is very true.

So now I’m going to open this blog to comments for my friends to comment on why we are friends and why are you drawn to me? What makes me the one you can rely on. What do you see when you first see me whether it be online or in person?

I'm also going to attach a video of one of my favorite Beatles tune.

Until next time.....

8/25/10 In My Life-The Beatles

Saturday, August 21, 2010

8/21/10 Inspirations from The Pagan Norse

Ramblings inspired by the video Pagan Norse....

I'm again finding myself learning another piece to my comes to me in jagged pieces. Perhaps, I will eventually finish this jigsaw of my spiritual life. I was online for some reason and was drawn to this video Pagan Norse. Now I'm sure some of you are knowledgeable about the Norse gods and goddesses. I wouldn't go as far as say I would worship these gods and goddesses because I don't go for the whole god and goddesses ideals. I think they were legends from long ago that through people's perceptions have made them into gods. I would venture to say spirit guides of sorts. Many years ago I was drawn to the Norse mythology and find myself again back to this circle. I was specially interested in Freya and I like the thought of Valkyries. At one time, I felt a feminine energy that I felt reminded me of Freya’s energy..I think she is still with me but in the background with everyone else that help me along with my path. I was talking to another friend about this phenomenon and he said maybe my true self was coming to life. The old ways are part of me very much so. A lot of things I agree with are on this line.

My family is Finnish/Scandinavian in origins so when I hear music along this idea I feel a deep resonance inside I'm closer to finding the next piece in my spiritual jigsaw.

So moving forward I'm going to check more into the Finnish beliefs and so forth and see if I can find more pieces to fit.

Feel free to comment on this post as I'm interested in hearing other people's opinions on my spiritual jigsaw puzz;e.

Until next time... draft

Saturday, August 14, 2010

8/14/10 Dream Ramblings


Today's blog is about one of my dreams I had. I forgot to write it down in detail today when I woke but I remember most of it.

For some reason, I was at a different house. Let me describe the house and then go on to my experiences there.

Looking out, we had a long rectangle of windows that opened like patio doors. There was those curtains that are specifically for patio doors long and in strips and you can move them open and close. The backyard had a deck and in one section a small inground pool to the left and to the right there was a grove of trees. Further back there was a privacy fences all around. I wish I could describe in further detail but this is all I remember. I remember hearing a sound and going to the back doors and looking out. In the grove of trees there were large humanoid figures dancing around the trees and hold onto something while chanting.

In the center of the trees there was a little garden and it had fairies flitting around. I remember being entranced in this dream but a little scared. Like I was seeing something normal people don't see. Then this overwhelming fear of something coming and I was filled dread. The scene around me got dark like night suddenly came. And I remember seeing that the humanoid shapes weren't around the trees anymore.

I feel myself going to the patio door windows and locking them all and drawing the curtains closed and the feeling I had to find this book of something that would stop the oncoming darkness and it was in this house in a secret passageway. My cat Olivia woke me from this dream once then I fell back into the dream and finally my cat came up to me and nudged me awake further. At that point, I got up out of bed and was awake.

I've seen different glimpses of things in my dreams before but this was a new one even for me. What message was I being given in this dream? Perhaps a key to unlocking my gifts and my destiny. A new book idea showing up. I really don't know but I'm intrigued now. I haven't dreamed so vividly and frequently for some time.

Any one else have dreams or out of the ordinary experiences to share??

Peace, love, and balance to all of you who take the time to read my ramblings.

Until next time.....

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

7/29/10 1st day of Lake Erie Camping Trip

7/29/10 Journey to Lake Erie Islands

Been awhile since I've last wrote in my blog. I felt lost without writing stuff. I need one of those writer block tools to start crazy stories or something. Who knows I may actually work on one of my old manuscripts.

We are taking our family trip to Lake Erie Islands to East Harbor State Park campground. We rented a cabin there and also brought a tent so the girls can have some space.

What randomness shall I write about today. Well let's start with something mundane. We decided to rent a mini van because our car doesn't have any working air conditioning and the kids are packed tight in the back seat. The rental van we got was a 2008 Dodge Caravan. Really nice. Very comfortable ride and drive. Wish I had the money to get this but alas not in the cards for me until Ry finds work again.

Another dealer in town has a pacifica we love but it's almost 12 grand. A bit over our budget right now. My car is on it's last leg. The two front tires are bald and showing the belts and shocks are very bad. So we are down to one car again.. That's fine for now until Ry gets work.

Okay onto the next random subject. When I was browsing online last nigh, I came across a hidden side to one of my long time friends. Not in a bad way. One of my best friends from high school starting posting videos of herself singing. What was interesting I found out that her singing voice is very different from her speaking voice. She sings beautifully with a little more polish she will work wonders. I think she needs to try out for America's Got Talent next year.

What other randomness to write about....hmmm.

Listening to hubby mp3 player in here and got a really good tune playing makes me want to dance.

Beautiful day out today. ..a little hot but will work out as soon as we get to the campground, we will be hitting the beach and taking in an evening swim. My exercise for the day.:)

That's about all for now.....

until next time...

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Mystical Dreams and Ramblings 7/15/10


I see myself sometimes in my dreams...

As a woman of mystical means...

I have a green cloak and a mane of red hair.

Sometimes in my hand is a book..

Another time it's a knife of sorts.

In the background, a gray tower stands..

Another life perhaps or just a dream..

In other dreams, I'm running through the trees

Long white dress flowing freely behind me..

In this one, I have hair that is long and fair.

I come upon a big house...with many doors

I open and shut them...going deeper still.

I feel like someone is following me through

the long and winding corridors...

I call these dreams visions of another life

A calling of sorts....healing and cleansing.

A reminder that I was here before.

This poem was inspired today by Celtic Dream by Enigma. It's a good thing I write as I had a stressful day yesterday. Real life relationship shit. Yesterday was another day in a marriage where I really have to remember that I love my other half. It was very hard..I felt like I was dealing with another kid. I hate days like that. A further truth that marriage isn't easy or simple. For the most part we don't fight but when we do it's a whopper of one. And I hate it. I try not to go to bed mad but some days it's hard. Last night was one of those nights but I did. I kissed him goodnight and went to bed.

It helps when I have people I can talk to now that just listen to me rant. That clears my head and helps me think clearly. I also put my headphones on and started the meditation play-list on my media player and that helped further.

This morning I woke up bright and early, thanks to my fur-kids. Olivia seems to think at 5 in the morning that it's time for me get up and see what she has brought me. Usually her little fur mice toys.

I dread the day when she will bring me a real dead mouse. But that is what she does, she thinks she needs to feed Mommy. I cant help but smile and praise her even when I'm groaning inside about the time of the day. So I got up. Which in the long run was good because my muse was inspired to write today.

I'm off to work in a half hour so I'm going to close this post.

Until next time readers..

Sunday, July 4, 2010


Today I was inspired by Woody Harrelson's Thoughts from Within poem.

Today I give birth to the ideas running in my head. Completely random shit. I dealt with an experience today that showed me that I have changed and became stronger. I don't know if it's the enlightenment I've received in the last few months. The new acquaintances I've met by the sisters Fate. All this while, leading me down my path which is constantly evolving, ever changing, I'm like a phoenix rising out the ashes. New beginnings old endings. This I have a feeling is going to be the way of the world. 2012 will be the end of the old world...and the start of new world, new thinking, another step in the world's journey. I sit here looking of the beauty of my cat's eyes and simplicity in my thoughts of late. Crystal clear clarity is coming to me in flashes of light. Images are revealed to me and I am shown the true beauty of things. The light of the firefly leading my thoughts down the road..their beauty is made even more extraordinary by the short time they have on this earth. Small bursts of life in the pattern. It's all a pattern. That's all it's ever been. It just take some clear thinking to see things. The mask is taken off, the light is shown. Spiritual wisdom is in the experience of your life, not the age that your body is. Your mind is much older...your soul is eternal, constantly reshaping and changing into what it should be.

The muse dances in my head...singing to me specks of inspiration. A whirlwind of energy flows within and outside of me leading me to writing the words on the page. The lifeblood of my energy flows slowly with each keystroke.

Have you ever felt this way? Like you were in the darkness and suddenly shown light. Like a giant flashing in the chaos of thought. Be careful your words and thoughts don't get lost.

I stood outside and watched the stars last night. The immensity of those stars awed me for an instant. The wind blew through my hair, singing me a lullaby. My bare feet touch the earth and I'm grounded. I feel clean for the first time in a long time. Clear of mind and soul. You can feel the lightness of my feet.

The music plays in my mind and relaxes me as I finish this piece of my soul.

I hope you understand what I've wrote today and you comment and share your views on it.

Until next time,


Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Friends Rambling 6/30/10


Reading through my old blogs, which sparked this posting.

This blog is about friends,

I'm constantly amazed at the amount of people that “found” me or I “found” them.

As my path goes on, the answers to my questions, slowly are found. I asked for help in my path, and it seems I'm being given help. For this I'm thankful to all my new and old friends who seem to show up when I need them.

Everyone's story is different...can you take a moment to share why you”found” me and why you were “drawn” to me. I'd like to know if we share parallel thoughts on these things.

Short but sweet, only good when short doesn't involve sex :)

Peace and balance,


Monday, June 28, 2010

Mundane Day 6/27/10


We were fairly busy this weekend. Yesterday we went to our friends house for our church gathering. The drummer ended up not showing so we just hung around and had a cookout. But we were able to have a brainstorming session about where we wanted to go. We kinda figured out when to have our monthly meetings. Looks to be the 3rd Saturday of every month. We met a few new people last night.

The moon was beautiful last night. Felt her energy in more ways than one. And today the storms are moving through. Mother Nature at her finest.

My oldest in home again from her vacation in Missouri. She says she is glad to be home where she can relax instead of run around to different places every day. I agree with her. That's the problem with vacations. Too much to do and not enough time to do it.

Someday when I win the lottery, maybe we will take more vacations.

Well today is a pretty lazy day. We aren't doing much but sitting or laying around.

Enough mundane shit for now...

until next time,


Ramblings Spurned by Phone Call in the Car


Phone calls and thoughts in the car..Ranting warned.

So I was talking to my cousin whom I lovingly call bitch about things today. We always have meaningful discussions. We got started on the way the world is today and it escalated so I had to come home and write my thoughts on it.

First of all, I love Mother Earth and try to do what I can. I'm just appalled at the gulf oil disgusts me that BP has the fucking technology but they don't want to lose the oil so this spill continues. Ruining ecosystems and they are fucking arrogant enough to assume that fucking mother nature won't wipe out your asses.

These crazy weather patterns are just a warning. Mother Nature is pissed and she is getting rid of us. It's not fucking Armageddon...God isn't showing his wrath. If there is a God, he's indifferent and we are just specks of grass to him. Mother Nature on the other hand thinks we are weeds in her garden and she is systemically getting rid of the weed with weedkillers such as tornadoes, floods, earthquakes, hurricane, tsunami and other high powered shit.

I'd rather be killed by the Mother because it's the natural order of things. Mother Nature was here millenniums before us and she will be here millenniums after us. We are nothing to her anymore. We are just in her space and she is cleaning house.

I looked at the moon tonight...such beauty and energy flow... I feel it in my soul. It makes me wanna dance in the moonlight..

I think I may do a practice read after a bit with my new deck. It calls me so gently. Good energy to do it tonight too if I'm not too tired.

That's my rant........thanks for following down this path today.

Peace and balance,

Heather aka Earthwindwalker.

Happy Father's Day!


Happy Father's Day to my Dad and my beloved Ryan.

Father's day is just a day. You should appreciate your father every day not just one day. I love my dad each and every day. He is partially responsible for the person I am today. He gave me my strength and beliefs. I've always been a daddy's girl. Me and Dad just understand each other.

Ryan is a great dad, he got 3 kids when he married me and he has really stepped up to the plate with them. He is strict but he loves all the kids and would die for each one if he had to. Someday they will appreciate that he cares for them even if he seems mean at times.

To all the other Dads out there, no matter how you are a dad, thank you! Have a great day everyday.

Peace and balance all,

Heather aka Earthwindwalker

Spiritual Ramblings-Summer Solstice


On the eve of Summer Solstice, I'm reflecting on my spiritual self as I have many times recently. I feel like I'm running out of time. My uncle and I had an interesting spiritual discussion last week when we were there. I brought up the fact that my dad is very closemouthed about his belief system. I know my mom's but not dad's. I've always pondered why I am the way I am and I think it is part of my dad's inner self coming out. They say special abilities have to be hereditary. My uncle brought up the word sou-list. He said you and your dad believe everything has life/soul even the rocks. I've Googled the term but not come up with anything. Patience isn't my best virtue, I'm working on it. Here are the things that draw me spiritually. Tarot divination, animal spirit guides, animal meanings, wind, trees, water, fire, universal creating energy, calling on the elements, empathy, prophetic dreams, cats, soul healing, and tons more. I don't want a definition of who I am, just answers to why I am like I am and why am I here. Just the same old shit everyone else asks themselves.

I've dreamed of myself in a forest with a green cloak upon my shoulders and a book in my hand. In the background is a tower. What is this constant recurring dream that I have? I feel like I'm being told something but what exactly?

I dabbled in Wicca, didn't resonate with me. Native way I respect a lot of the things they believe in but not everything. Drums move me in a way no other instrument can. I feel the beat through my whole body.

My cats always surround me in a triangle..strange brew indeed. Why do they do that? Any cat will come to me, feral or otherwise.

I joined our church because I wanted a place where everything I'm interested in is talked about. Where all belief systems have a voice. I may not agree with all of them but I respect them. I hope our church grows and we have more people join. I like to think that our church is unlike any other church. I'm sure there are churches similar to us. But that doesn't matter because I'm helping to build this one.

I've went off the topic as usual. I love storms and their energy. While others are hiding and scared, I'm exhilarated and energized. What does that mean?

I'm always wondering why I have some many people drawn to me? Why are you drawn to me, please share I would love to hear about it? Don't be shy. Tell me what you like about me that made you decide you needed and wanted to talk to me.

I found it.....Animism...that is really close to what I believe in. Everything has a soul:) or Shaman with Animism tendencies. Again it's a label and I don't want to be defined by a label. Just reading those two words give me light-bulb in my head just now. I looked it up on Wikipedia. Shaman in regards to my soul healing tendencies and animism in regards to everything has a soul or energy.

Well that's all I'm going to ramble on about, but I'm going to set a few tasks for you the reader.

Tell me why you are drawn to me.

Tell me what your belief system is

Tell me how you are going to celebrate summer solstice.

Thanks for reading my ramblings...

Until next post....

Saturday, April 3, 2010