Runic Journey #2 3-9-13

Runic Journey #2 3/9/13

I’ve been having a particularly hard time the last few weeks. Death has been my shadow in the form of my second mom being overcome by cancer and now Illness is at hand with my Grandmother in the hospital with pneumonia. Sometimes I think perhaps my shamanic journey the last 6 months has led me to this point in time where strength, compassion and love are things I need to hold onto. The main point being I’m not alone. I have become more aware of my guides and the deities who have chosen to work with me now. They were really there all along just in the shadows waiting until I was ready. Being a shaman is not an easy journey and you are a fool to think otherwise. I choose Saturday for my meditation and prayer to my guides and my bond with the runes. After a day at the Owl with the grounding and centering meditation and then Who is Your Goddess class, it was already well on the way to an intensely spiritual day. There was also a reading by the medium Melissa Morgan and I don’t know if I will share that or not but I will definitely write it down for my own journey book. I have shared it with my love only because he is intricately bound in it and some enlightenment came and I remembered what was once forgotten. But I digress. The reason I wanted to do a special prayer is because I had much sorrow and pain and needed guidance and chose to read the runes after my meditation for validation.

I started out with a simple plea for my guides and deities for help with my shamanic work with my second mom. My main goal for this work was to provide comfort to her and prepare the way for her spirit to leave this plane. I’ve accomplished that partly but there is still more work to be done but it’s not time for that just yet. Then I lit some Dragon’s blood and prepared the runes for the post work.

I started in my sacred grove and sat under Mother Tree, who has shared many visions and embraces with me the last two weeks. Mother Freya appeared first as her particular gifts are what I need at this time and then Odin, whose relationship to me has been very murky until that knowledge was shown to me early in the day. Freya has her hair down and her helmet on and her two cats, I want to call them Muse and Darmia for some reason. She always brings them with her because she knows they comfort me. And then walks up my panther Li and my wolf Lobo. They eat rest their heads in my lap and I pet them one by one. Li is to my left and Lobo is to my right. Odin is to my right and Freya to my left.

They tell me that Momma Lu’s god awaits her and to follow them to see what I must see. We walk for a long time and come to a big oak door and it’s huge and massive and ornate pieces of gold wrap around it and in the middle is such an intense white light that it blinds me. Freya and Odin speak in unison and tell me to call Lu’s angels to help her walk through the gate. The name Michael forms on my lips and in a voice that is my own and not my own. I clap my hands three times and I call down Michael to hold audience with me. One of your own needs you and please come for yours. A beautiful being in gold armor appears to the right side of the gate and he says I have come and I will hold vigil for LuAnn Spears Burks and then to the left I see her ancestors and family members walk up and stand and say we shall hold vigil until the time has come. You shall bring her to us and she will move on. A feeling of dismissal weighs the air down and my deities walk back to the tree with me. Each clasp my shoulder and Freya kisses me on my brow and I feel such a beautiful tickling going up my left arm like I’m wrapped in silk. This is for you she said and walks away. In my right arm, a wave of strength moves up to my shoulder. Then he walks away. My panther and my wolf are always the last to leave me. Wolf and panther both lick my hands and rub them over their fur and I have strong warmth fill my body.

I woke up to my room and the world is crystal clear and then I close my eyes and ask the runes for their help. “Rune spirits, please give me your guidance so I may move forward” A tingling in the back of my neck forms and runs down my body and my hands are guided to the bags of runes and I start pulling them one by one and when I get to the ninth one, a multitude of voices speak in my head and say Look and learn.

Here are the runes I pulled and what meanings came to me.

Right to left

DAGAZ-major transformation, radical transition where ordinary life falls away

KENAZ-reversed-joyful giving up of old ways. Stasis. Death and Rebirth

OTHALA reversed-discard old conditioning and move forward with honesty. Then adapt and wait for universe’s bounty

EIHWAZ- enlightenment, balance, strength

NAUTHIZ-patience, face your fears, major self-change

HAGALAZ-disruption upon awakening from a deep sleep then complete power surge

GEBO-partnership that is separate yet united. Union with the Divine

JERA-seeds have been planted and sown. All is as it should be and patience is necessary. Wait to see the fruits of your labors.

FEHU-wealth, fruits of our labor, creation and destruction, abundance.

OFFERING TO THE RUNES,

DRAGON’S BLOOD INCENSE

MEAD

In closing, I thanked the rune spirits and then relaxed. I came awake and Mister was to my left.

Shamanic Meditation #2-Healing Power Meditation 3-3-13

Shamanic Meditation #1 on my own
Today was a special day that I needed extra help. Michelle’s mom (Mom #2) has been diagnosed with cancer again after a long remission only this time, it’s all through her body and incurable. She doesn’t have much time and I needed some extra energy today before I go to see her in the hospital. My gifts sometimes show me too much and I just don’t know how I could handle it on my own. I spoke with one of my mentors, Jim, and even though we haven’t really said that, he is important to my spiritual growth, I just know. Mentors are really teachers who you also teach and that is how I look at it. He is also my family and I thank my guides and gods who have shown me the path to him as well as so many others in the last year. One doesn’t make a family, many do.
Today I choose to do my Tree Meditation but before I did that I asked for my guides, gods and ancestors to come to me. The energy was very velvety and moved over my body in a calming matter so I knew something major was coming to me in this particular meditation.
I started walking into my grove of trees and found myself looking at the beautiful blue sky, the warm breeze danced through my hair and birds sang so beautifully and happily, they told me spring was coming soon. This helped me even more as I’ve been so wanting the maiden spring to come in. The smells filled the air, lilac, jasmine and even a rose. Everything was crystal clear. As I walked up to the tree, mother tree embraced me with her branches and two people walked up to me. The first one was Mother Freya. She was so maternal and serene... her long red hair falling down her back. She was in a simple dress and a dark blue shawl covered her shoulders, around her stood three cats. She spoke in a lyrical voice and said I’m here my child. As I watched a tall man walked up to the other side of the tree and he was darkly handsome with long grey hair and a grey beard and an eye patch over his eye, upon his shoulders sat 2 crows, Hugin and Munin. He had a dark cloak on and in his hands there was an old old staff engraved with runes. He walked up and said I’m here young one. They gestured to the tree and told me to prepare myself for what I must do. As I sat there, I saw a dark grey wolf walk up and sit on my right side and lay his head on my leg and look up at me with his dark brown eyes. Then a black panther slinked up to me, golden yellow eyes and laid down on my left side and put her head on my right leg and looked up at me with her golden eyes. Then a group of all assorted animals came up from the trees, deer, elk, rabbits, turtles, lions and different big cats, many of them.
As I closed my eyes, I seen the Fates (maiden, mother, crone) spinning on their wheel of spider silk and I felt their energy fill me and I closed my eyes the last thing I heard was the birds chirping in the wind through my hair as I flowed into the tree and followed the roots, Mother Earth covered me in her warm moist dirt, giving me warmth as I traveled. I went many miles parting through rock as if I were swimming in water and they parted for me and touched me with their strength as I moved forward. Finally I come to the pristine lake with the clear waters and from the water a woman rose up and whispered let go of your sorrows and pain my daughter and let it flow into the water. She lifted me up and embraced me and I felt all the pain and sorrow fall from me. She became a huge waterfall and I became the waterfall as well and we pushed forward back into the water and back to the roots of the tree and I journeyed back very fast, Mother Earth caressed me with her essence as I moved through her. I came back into my body very quickly and Father Odin took my head in both of his hands and said take what I give you young one. And then Mother Freya placed a kiss on my forehead and said this will help you my child. They both said now go and get your tool to help. The wolf licked my right hand and the panther my left hand. As I looked up my beautiful lynx walked up to me and sat down, nodded and said climb on my back young one. I climbed onto her back and ran my hands over her soft fur and felt myself becoming one with her as she ran. We came to the largest Ancestor fire I’ve seen and many more ancestors were there waiting for me. Grandpa Baldwin said Hey Toots, been waiting for you, and I’m here. I walked up to him and gave him a hug and he told me to tell Dad that he was a good son and that he always watching over him and I see my great grandmother Bircher, my great grandmother Sheffer, my grandma Sheffer and my grandpa Sheffer and many more back ages through time. Last one who came up to me was Uncle Dave and he said I may not be blood but I’m always your family and he said he’s seen his boys and his grandson and granddaughter and that they are beautiful and I’m to tell Shawn and Wes that they are good dads. He told me that he watches out for all of them and more so with Todd. He gave me a hug and told me to go to where I needed and the many generations of ancestors parted the way for the eldest grandmother. She motions me to come here and give me the blade and said remember your lessons, protect, heal, teach and the sword glows brighter than I’ve ever seen, the runes move continuously over the blade, it becomes the staff and the staff glows with such a bluish green intensity flowing over it and into my hands that shake with the power, then the book appears larger than before and flips open and healing runes flow into my body quickly and some I recognize some I don’t. I walk away from the fire thanking all my ancestors for being there for me and protecting me and guiding me.
I start to walk towards the lynx, my body humming with power, I feel like an electrical wire. I climb onto her back and we run very fast from the fire and back to the grove of trees.
The animals in the grove slowly move away and the wolf, panther, lynx lick me as they leave. Father Odin and Mother Freya walked away and I wake up and come back into my body. I see my familiar Olivia laying to my left side and Samuel in front of me. Mister walks up to me and lets me pet him and walks away. I feel cleansed and full of energy once I come back to this reality.