On the eve of Summer Solstice, I'm reflecting on my spiritual self as I have many times recently. I feel like I'm running out of time. My uncle and I had an interesting spiritual discussion last week when we were there. I brought up the fact that my dad is very closemouthed about his belief system. I know my mom's but not dad's. I've always pondered why I am the way I am and I think it is part of my dad's inner self coming out. They say special abilities have to be hereditary. My uncle brought up the word sou-list. He said you and your dad believe everything has life/soul even the rocks. I've Googled the term but not come up with anything. Patience isn't my best virtue, I'm working on it. Here are the things that draw me spiritually. Tarot divination, animal spirit guides, animal meanings, wind, trees, water, fire, universal creating energy, calling on the elements, empathy, prophetic dreams, cats, soul healing, and tons more. I don't want a definition of who I am, just answers to why I am like I am and why am I here. Just the same old shit everyone else asks themselves.
I've dreamed of myself in a forest with a green cloak upon my shoulders and a book in my hand. In the background is a tower. What is this constant recurring dream that I have? I feel like I'm being told something but what exactly?
I dabbled in Wicca, didn't resonate with me. Native way I respect a lot of the things they believe in but not everything. Drums move me in a way no other instrument can. I feel the beat through my whole body.
My cats always surround me in a triangle..strange brew indeed. Why do they do that? Any cat will come to me, feral or otherwise.
I joined our church because I wanted a place where everything I'm interested in is talked about. Where all belief systems have a voice. I may not agree with all of them but I respect them. I hope our church grows and we have more people join. I like to think that our church is unlike any other church. I'm sure there are churches similar to us. But that doesn't matter because I'm helping to build this one.
I've went off the topic as usual. I love storms and their energy. While others are hiding and scared, I'm exhilarated and energized. What does that mean?
I'm always wondering why I have some many people drawn to me? Why are you drawn to me, please share I would love to hear about it? Don't be shy. Tell me what you like about me that made you decide you needed and wanted to talk to me.
I found it.....Animism...that is really close to what I believe in. Everything has a soul:) or Shaman with Animism tendencies. Again it's a label and I don't want to be defined by a label. Just reading those two words give me light-bulb in my head just now. I looked it up on Wikipedia. Shaman in regards to my soul healing tendencies and animism in regards to everything has a soul or energy.
Well that's all I'm going to ramble on about, but I'm going to set a few tasks for you the reader.
Tell me why you are drawn to me.
Tell me what your belief system is
Tell me how you are going to celebrate summer solstice.
Thanks for reading my ramblings...
Until next post....